"You have a hole in your heart. You were born with a heart murmer and it has grown into a hole. Yes, you know where it is in the lower left quadrant of your heart. Now feel why you have a hole in your heart..."
and i began to feel ... Melchizadek stood to my left back, Pan on the right front, MaryAnna (my higher self embodied) was director of the experience and Isis stood in front of me.
I felt... I felt the sword pierce Jesus' heart on the cross. I felt the pain of Mary beholding the piercing of Jesus heart as her own heart pierced. I Knew that they were all prepared in their hearts for the crucifixion itself, but the piercing of the heart was more... and the Mother of All's Heart was pierced. Humanity's Heart had a hole in it.
When I was a little girl my favorite song on the piano was "Murmer Little Brooklet". "Murmer little brooklet softly softly, merry little brooklet murmer soft and low." I felt the murmering of the Mother's heart. I felt the murmering of my heart as a mother. I felt the hole in my heart in my body.
Isis brought my daughters before me. The elder (Maia) stood boldly and lovingly face to face with me... the younger hid away. I connected through Maia to the place where she and I are one... without any other individuals influencing our relationship and felt her... my precious child... and felt the hole in my heart. I had to feel it deeply... so I did.
Then the team lept into action! Melchizadek began healing the hole in my heart.... in my physical body as I felt the emotions of having a hole... so much pouring through a vortex that sucked my life force. I wondered what I would be like with a Whole Heart since I'd never had that in this body.
I realized how my experiences over the last few years were designed to increase my loving ability so I would be able to finally fill that hole. I learned to love... and love more... and when I was hurt to love more... and when things got dark and ugly to love through the darkness... loving more and more and more. I learned to love myself more than anyone else.
Sri Sri Ravi Shankar says "the only security we have in this world is in Loving." not being loved but in the act of loving. I felt secure in loving. I felt whole when loving. I AM Loving.
The feminine heart of humanity has been bleeding... I thought of the verse "Rachel weeping for her children for they were not." and "The Mother and Child reunion is only a motion away". As I heal my heart and acknowledge the hole that has been within, I am grateful to my spiritual mothers... Mary and Anna... mother and grandmother of Jesus who named me MaryAnna so many lifetimes ago. I am grateful to my spiritual father, Melchizadek, who taught me to BE Loving and has taken me on this journey to be Here NOW.
We all must heal the feminine heart within ourselves... men and women alike. The murder of innocence must stop and the vortex of war must cease. STOP ... FEEL ... LOVE with all you have and all you are for the world needs our love and nothing else will stop the warring mind but loving.
HEAL THE MOTHER'S HEART FOR US ALL... within our own body. and allow Love to fill your heart and overflow to us all!